As a child, I was abused by a leader of the church. It affected me as I grew up and in my decision-making as an adult.
My life was a very dark and lonely life. I suffered major depression. I felt lonely and discouraged. My life was deteriorating. I was a person walking around with a broken heart, not knowing my purpose in life, and I didn’t understand why God had allowed me so much pain. I felt lost.
One night I was crying and crying; I didn’t understand my purpose in life. I was walking around with so much pain that I could no longer handle it. So I decided that I would kill myself. “Why live like this? Might as well just die and sleep in peace.” These were the thoughts that governed me. I went to the kitchen and grabbed a knife, planning to cut and stab myself so I could bleed to death. I was tired and just wanted to just end it … when a small voice told me, “Stop.”
At first, I didn’t know where this was coming from. Again the small voice said, “Stop.” “But it went further, “Give me one more chance.” I knew at that instance it was God. I put the knife down and fell asleep crying. The next Saturday, we were to visit Pastor Doug’s church in Sacramento. While there, I came across some old-time friends. They invited me to attend a teen prayer conference that they were sponsoring. Ever since, the Lord has been gradually working in me.
Every day, I fall more and more in love with Him. I now have peace. Amazing Facts has helped me to understand the Bible and understand prophecy, and now I want to learn more. Their podcasts have helped me in my spiritual journey. I even studied at the Amazing Facts Center of Evangelism!
Today, I’m at the best time of my life. I want to work for the Lord, to give my all to Him, and to become a Bible worker. I want to give my life to the work and finish it.